Navigating Challenges, Shaping a Bright 2024
January: Grand Beginnings in Guadalajara, Mexico 🌟 and Navigating Challenges, Shaping a Bright 2024
- Welcoming the New Year with my grandsons & DIL, Karina, set the tone for a promising start.
- Reflecting on the challenges that awaited, the journey unfolded.
Embracing the Challenges: 10 Key Takeaways from 2023 🌈
- Continuous Self-Motivation and Self-Love
- Investing in Continuous Upskilling
- Navigating Long-Distance Friendships and Building New Bonds
- Always Having a Plan B
- Anticipating Life’s Twists with Backup Plans
- Living in the Present, Trusting the Process, and Letting Go of Negativity
- Living in the Moment and Embracing Life Fully
- Adopting a One-Day-at-a-Time Philosophy with Manifestation
- Trusting in a Higher Power’s Plans
- Expressing Gratitude for Resilience
February: Birthday Surprises and Mental Health Realities 🎂
- A lavish birthday celebration at The Faluknama Palace marked the beginning.
- A pivotal moment as mental health challenges surfaced, leading to a shift in perspective.
March: Finding Inspiration and Seeking Change ✨
- Participating in a blog hop on the theme “She: A Tribute to Her.”
- A soul-searching trip to Meghalaya and the decision to move to a gated community.
June: Settling into a New Haven and Pursuing Happiness 🏡
- Finding a haven in a green, welcoming gated community.
- Realizing the importance of seeking happiness within.
August: Battling Clinical Depression and Seeking Help 🌧️
- The onset of a severe depressive episode and exploring various avenues for help.
- Seeking solace in a day trip to Bidar Sahib and affirming financial freedom.
September: Manifesting Change and Financial Freedom 💸
- A drastic decision to sell the dream home for financial stability.
- Battling health issues, seeking help, and manifesting positive change.
October: Unexpected Challenges and Astrological Alignment 🌌
- Facing challenges in selling the property but overcoming obstacles.
- Astrological predictions align with newfound financial prospects.
November: A Rollercoaster Ride Towards Financial Security 🎢
- Selling the property amidst doubts and criticisms.
- A miraculous incident with a road accident reinforced gratitude.
December: Culmination of Financial Transformation and New Beginnings 🌈
- Finalizing the sale, attending weddings, and receiving compliments on newfound vitality.
- Welcoming the New Year with a disciplined lifestyle and a mantra for 2024.
Navigating Challenges, Shaping a Bright 2024
- Embracing the journey ahead with resilience, adaptability, and a commitment to self-value.
This is an abridged version of the year. I am going to share the detailed one below. Please read and let me know your thoughts.
Navigating Challenges, Shaping a Bright 2024
2023 began superbly with my grandsons, Arian, Amir & DIL, Karina, in Guadalajara, Mexico. Looking back on the past year, I find countless things to be grateful for despite the challenges. It taught me many valuable lessons, and the most significant takeaways from this year were:
Embracing the Challenges: Here are 10 key takeaways from 2023 🌟:
- Continuous self-motivation and self-love are key.
- Invest in upskilling myself at every life stage—this investment is never in vain.
- Navigate long-distance friendships and build solid new ones.
- Always have a Plan B.
- Anticipate life’s twists and turns; it’s crucial to have a backup plan ready. Life is unpredictable!
- Live in the present, trust the process, and rid yourself of negative thoughts. Forgive but may not forget; hold no grudges.
- Live in the moment, letting go of past baggage and embracing life.
- Embrace the philosophy of living one day at a time. Manifest!
- Trust in a higher power’s plans—they often surpass our own.
- Gratitude for resilience.
Let me start my journey from 2023 to 2024 with a flashback. In December 2023, I randomly came across my Aquarius fortune reading for 2023. Let me list a few of what I read and how I manifested it all.
A year of finding solutions-2023
I will come back to this later. 2023 started exceptionally with my grandsons in Guadalajara, Mexico. Ringing in the New Year with them was exhilarating and rejuvenating. I was back in mid-January.
I am an Aquarian, and my birthday falls on 4th Feb. My daughter, Esha, had made plans for a lavish dinner at The Faluknama Palace. On the 4th morning, I woke up with a start, and as soon as I touched my mobile, Google Photos popped up on the screen with my son’s pictures highlighted in the memories. It evoked painful emotions, but I had to compose myself, as I didn’t want to let down my daughter.
My psychiatrist, Dr. NV Ramana Rao, has been a pillar of support for 30 years. He is getting on in years and suggested that I find someone in Hyderabad. After a list of suggestions, I zeroed in on Dr. Harihar, HOD @ Bhaskar Medical College. He heard me out and put me on Bupron 500. (side effect is anxiety attacks)My condition was not improving much, but I put my faith in him.
The incident shook me to the core, and along with it, a dear friend disappeared from my life suddenly. I started experiencing anxiety attacks and made my best effort to control them. I attended the dinner and enjoyed myself. However, the following days worsened, and I got sucked into the depression whirlpool. I chose the escape route and departed for Vijayawada, my hometown, and my daughter. The change of scene proved helpful, and I overcame the depression monster through sheer willpower.
In March, I signed up for a blog hop. The theme was -She: A Tribute to Her, hosted by Swarnali Nath. She asked me to write about a woman who inspired me to mark International Women’s Day. Without being opinionated or pompous, my story is about inspiration – She-is Courage.
In April, my girl gang and I embarked on our annual friends’ vacation to Meghalaya and had a blast. I came back and realized that I needed to move out more and be amongst people. Living in a stand-alone apartment building added to my loneliness. I started looking for an apartment in a gated community. You might think it is a simple task, but believe me, it took me from March to June to finally find a place.
June–Navigating Challenges, Shaping a Bright 2024
The gated community I moved into is a beautiful green haven. As per my nature, I effortlessly made friends, and I soon started mingling with the ladies and kids. We keep chasing happiness in different things, wishing that once we get it, we will be happy. But in reality, this is not true. Happiness lies within ourselves, and we keep chasing a mirage. Almost a month and a half went by in settling into the new home.
I have shared my clinical depression journey repeatedly, including my recent personal trauma. One fine day, the depression monster struck again in August, and I took it very lightly, thinking that I was now a veteran and could slide through it. I am a fighter, and I was in full fighting mode. I took the Art of Living classes hoping that it would help, but it didn’t. When I see that I cannot cope, I cry out for help.
During my intense depressive episode in August, Dr. Harihar experimented with several medications that proved ineffective for me. It started as insomnia, and the sleeplessness was screwing with my mind. I would wake up with severe anxiety attacks. Doctor Harihar prescribed Trazonil 50 mg, which had to be increased every two days to reach 300mg.
Between all this, I called Srinivas, my son, or rather an angel sent from Him. And he could tell from my voice that I was feeling low. Knowing that I enjoy going out, he asked if I would like to go on a day trip. In usual times, I would have opted for a resort, dinner, or a movie, but strangely, I wished to go to Bidar Sahib, a sacred Sikh Gurudwara. I am a spiritual person, but not very religious. Even I could not decipher my decision. It was like a divine calling. This has made me religious and am eternally grateful to the Almighty. The day went by fast, and at the end of the day, I shared my innermost thoughts with Srinivas, declaring that I would be rid of all financial struggles by the end of the year.
There was nothing concrete about my financial problems improving. It was just my gratitude and affirmations transforming into manifestation. Yes, I manifested it all.
Back to my Depression
The 50mg of Trazonil reduced my anxiety but inflamed my digestive system. I woke up with nausea, vomiting, constipation, and acute stomach pain. Despite it being intolerable, I increased the dosage to 100 mg as prescribed. My condition worsened, but, in my silliness, I was glad that the anxiety had reduced, though my stomach experienced discomfort. The doctor asked me to see a physician. I didn’t increase the dosage. I avoid googling my medicines, as the side effects of these psychiatric medicines can shake you to the core. But when I checked on Trazonil it was all there in black and white.
I thought it would settle down in a week at the maximum. Even after a month, I was suffering, and one Sunday, I was rushed to ER at Apollo in the morning and KIMS in the afternoon. At Apollo Hospital, the doctor on call refused to listen to me. He sat behind a glass screen and didn’t even check my pulse or BP, or hear me out. I kept insisting it was trapped gas, but he silenced me, asserting he was the doctor and knew better
In September, I actively participated in a Truly Yours Holistic Wellness Blog Hop, reaching out to my blogger friends for assistance. Rakhi Jayashankar, a wellness coach, guided me through the next three months. Providing counselling, coaching, motivation, and encouragement. I extend my heartfelt gratitude to her. I have to thank Dr Garima, a Twitter friend as well, for being my motivator always. Simultaneously, I engaged with three other counsellors—two online and one offline. All three did not help me.
I received counselling from Dr Shalini, who I identified as a kindred soul, after my son’s demise. As I headed to meet her, I had complete confidence that she would guide me out of this challenging situation. I communicated to her that I acknowledged the fault within myself. Needed to come to terms with my loneliness, but lacked the knowledge of how to achieve that. I earnestly requested her assistance in helping me to help myself. To my surprise, she admonished me. Stating that no one could assist me and that I had to take charge of helping myself. This was the last straw. I lost all hope.
Another Change of Psychiatrist
But, I reached out to all my friends’ groups on WhatsApp to refer a good psychiatrist in Hyderabad. A psychologist friend recommended Dr V Chandrachud, MD @Citi Neuro Centre in Banjara Hills. I could barely walk, yet I took a cab and went to see him. I wrote a brief history of my 40-year-old mental health journey on my iPhone Notes and shared it with him. He prescribed some medicines and sent me home. I was told that the effect of Trazonil would dissipate in a week. He asked me to come for a follow-up after ten days.
My daughter came down to see me as I was in such bad shape and accompanied me to Dr. Chandrachud. He assured me that I was on the road to recovery and changed the prescription again. One medicine was Alkepin Odt 12.5mg Tablet used in the treatment of schizophrenia (a mental disorder that can result in hallucinations or delusions and also adversely affects a person’s ability to think and behave) My daughter left the next morning, and my condition worsened. I called my old doctor, Ramana Rao and pleaded with him to release me from my agony. He asked me to share the prescriptions. And assured me he would call me back the next morning after researching the medicines. Expressing shock, he informed me that Alkepin is prescribed for schizophrenia. He couldn’t believe I was moving around, walking, and doing yoga. Ironically, Dr. Chandrachud was a student of Dr. Ramana Rao. I visited Dr. Ramana Rao, and he altered my medications. Within a week, I showed improvement.
I pose a poignant and crucial question here: Do we allow doctors to go scot-free, or should we hold them accountable for their mistakes and the traumas they have caused?
Life has always been a challenge for me. At one point, financial stability seemed like a hard dream. Now, my enduring hope and determination to create a comfortable life keep me positive. After persevering for 19 years, my husband’s family gave me a piece of land. I opted to put up the dream home I built from scratch for sale. Realizing that a true home is with family, not just walls. Going through writer’s block and dealing with nausea stopped my usual stress relievers: cooking and writing. Yet, despite the block, I shared My Roller Coaster Journey of Finances.
My horoscope–“In October, Rahu and Ketu will transit in your second and eighth houses. Because of this, you will suddenly get money. Money gained from the in-laws’ side. Your luck will fully support you in the last three months of the year. Suddenly some good news can come, which can be related to your income. Because of your intelligence, you will solve any problem between October and December. I read this a few days ago. I sold the plot of land within a week. Went through the registration process bent double with pain even in public.
Astrotalk – “You must have heard that problems make you stronger. Thus, in the New Year 2023, with every hurdle that comes, the Aquarius zodiac sign will become stronger; more struggles will come with Rahu in the last quarter of 2023. Influencing your health, the planet will be troublesome and affect things a lot. With the planets changing their positions one after the other, your financial situation will improve.”
Isn’t this uncannily true?
In November, putting my home up for sale proved to be no easy task, with so-called well-wishers declaring that it was not going to be possible to sell it as it was a huge property and the market was down. However, several buyers came forward within a week, and I sold it to the highest bidder. Do not think that all this happened effortlessly. There were many hurdles and hitches, some from extended family. On Gurunanak Jayanti, I had a meeting with the buyer that didn’t go well. It was after 8 pm, and I was driving home, disappointed with the talks, driving at around 20-30 mph when suddenly a lady ran across the road, hit my windshield, and fell on the road. Her head was bruised, and a crowd had gathered around.
Despite her husband’s lack of concern, her son and I persistently persuaded her, eventually bringing her to a private hospital. I paid 10k at the hospital for cosmetic sutures and the rest of the treatment. I dropped her home and placed 10k in her hands. Her husband was talking to a lawyer, on whose land they were staying, but God bless the simple lady who kept repeating that it was her fault and not mine. I reached home and broke down. The consequences of the incident loomed large in my thoughts. I could only express gratitude to Him for saving both her and me.
In December, finally, the buyer and I came to terms, and we decided to finish the registration within the next two months. Finally, it all came together, and I am now on the road to financial security after almost 20 years of struggle.
I attended a wedding in Bengaluru on the 9th and another on the 25th of December. It was a much-needed change. The loss of weight due to the traumas made me look slimmer and youthful, and I am floored with compliments from random people I meet. I was known as Santoor Granny way back in 2014, and after ten years, I think I still qualify for that acronym. For the first time in my life, I have started accepting compliments gracefully. How many times will I have to be a Phoenix rising from the ashes?
I welcomed the New Year with a video call with my grandsons and a shopping outing with my daughter. It marked the ideal start to this New Year, offering promises of improved mental, financial, emotional, and physical well-being. I maintain a disciplined lifestyle incorporating gratitude, yoga, meditation, a 4 km daily walk, and sattvic food. A sincere thank you to 2023 for shaping me into a more resilient and adaptable individual.
Navigating Challenges, Shaping a Bright 2024
2024, I’m ready for whatever you bring! 💪
Mantra for 2024 – Embrace Life, Rid Yourself of Clutter, Detach, and Delete anything that diminishes your life’s value.
This post Navigating Challenges, Shaping a Bright 2024 is part of The Year & You Blog Hop hosted by Swarnali Nath